Wade probably should have been more
nervous than he was, but he was strangely calm. He noticed a few
funny looks as he made his way into the Metropolitan Opera House,
but he ignored them. He knew he was supposed to be there. If there
was one thing Wade had gained from starting in the business so young
it was confidence. Some people might call it cockiness, but he was
not one of them. Wade knew that he was going places, and
choreographing Britney Spears' tour had done wonders for his growing
career. He'd been able to give his input on the direction of the
tour and, of course, he always got to dance. So it was no surprise
to Wade, or to anyone who knew him when a skinny, pink haired kid
walked onto the stage for the 1999 Video Music Award performance
rehearsal.
Britney greeted him with her usual warm
smile and cheerful voice. "Wade!" she said, grabbing his arm and
dragging him across the stage. "I wanna introduce you to the Nsync
guys." Wade had heard Britney talk about them enough to know that
they were cool guys and so he followed her over to the side of the
stage. "You're going to love them," she said. "They love what you
did with the music for this performance, and they've been wanting to
meet you."
She led him towards two men who he knew to
be Joey and Chris. "Guys," she said, grinning, "this is Wade. Wade
this is Joey and Chris."
"Hey man," Joey said, shaking Wade's hand.
"Nice to meet you."
Wade smiled. "Yeah, you too man." There was
something about Joey's warm eyes that made Wade automatically feel
at ease. Plus, his hair color was even brighter than Wade's was at
the moment.
Chris seemed distracted, and Britney nudged
him slightly. "Chris?"
"Huh? What?" Chris said, turning his
attention to Britney, at least partially.
"Say hello to Wade," she said.
"Oh. Hey," Chris responded, glancing in
Wade's direction. He seemed to barely notice that he had just met
someone new.
"Hey," Wade responded. He looked at Britney
who shrugged, and led him away.
"That's just Chris. Nothing and no one can
hold his attention for very long."
"Hey Lance, JC," Britney said as she took
Wade over to them, "this is Wade."
Wade noticed that JC and Lance were standing
slightly away from everyone else, and they had been laughing about
something, almost like it was a private joke, when Wade and Britney
had approached them.
"Hey Wade," Lance said, and Wade heard
immediately Lance's rich southern accent. Studying Lance
momentarily, Wade saw that Lance had eyes a shade of green he had
never seen before.
"Hi, Wade, nice to meet you," JC said,
extending his hand. Wade shook it, feeling automatically at ease
among these two, and not at all uncomfortable or intimidated like he
had around Chris. JC was tall, with dark hair, and very lean. A good
body for dancing, Wade noted.
"I really liked what you did with the music
for this performance, man," JC said, smiling.
"Thanks," Wade replied, pleased. "I'm glad.
It was fun. A nice change."
"Do you write?" JC asked.
"Actually..." Wade started, before Britney
cut in.
"OK, we're not going to get into a musical
discussion now. You still have to meet Justin." She grinned. "I
saved the best for last."
"I'll talk to you guys later," Wade said,
waving as Britney drug him away. "Jeez Brit. In a hurry?"
"Maybe a little one," Britney said with a
smirk. "Justin!"
A young man, about Wade's height, though
somehow more imposing, with curly blond hair turned towards them.
Britney hurried towards him, Wade in tow, a huge smile spread across
her pretty face.
"Hey Justin," she said in a tone of voice
that Wade had never heard from her. He wondered if those rumors he
had heard about them were true. But judging from Justin's almost
non-reaction he doubted it. "Wade, this is Justin."
Their eyes met, and Wade was taken aback by
the beauty of the man looking back at him. He had seen Justin
Timberlake before, in pictures and in videos, but seeing him in
person was a completely different experience. "It's...it's nice to
meet you," he stammered, extending his hand. He noticed that
Justin's eyes had left his, and traveled upwards.
"Nice hair," Justin commented, a mocking
tone to his voice, before turning his attention back to the crew man
who was working on setting up his microphone. And for the first time
since he'd gotten it done, Wade wished he'd never gone on the
impulse to dye his hair.
He almost flinched at this apparent
dismissal. Britney frowned at Justin's back, before turning back to
Wade with an encouraging smile. "Don't worry about him," she said.
"He's got a lot on his mind."
Wade nodded slightly, suddenly self-
conscious. He ran a hand through his hair. "Does it look that bad?"
"Oh no, sweetie, I swear. It looks great."
She looked back at Justin, and rolled her eyes. "He's just in one of
his moods. Sometimes he says things, or does things, and he doesn't
realize...well, he can be stupid sometimes."
Wade nodded again, though he wasn't really
sure if she was telling the truth or just trying to make him feel
better. "You OK?" she asked.
"Yeah," he answered. "Fine."
"Well, then let's get this rehearsal going
then. Huh?"
"Sure thing Brit," he said, smiling and
following her to the center of the stage.
Wade rubbed a towel over his damp hair,
wiping the sweat away. The rehearsal had been good. They had worked
hard. The routine was good. Wade couldn't help but be proud of the
job he had done on Britney's choreography, and think that Nsync's
would have been much better if he had been given the opportunity to
do it himself.
"Nice work out there," said a voice from
behind him. Wade turned, and again, locked eyes with Justin
Timberlake.
Wade cleared his throat, suddenly flustered,
but trying to hide it. "Thanks," he said, his voice cautious. "You
too."
"Thanks," Justin said, smiling. Seeing that
smile, Wade felt his throat suddenly go dry. He cleared it again,
swallowing visibly. Justin obviously noticed, because he held up his
water bottle in offering. "Here ya go, man," he said, tossing it to
Wade.
"Thanks," Wade replied, opening the bottle,
and taking a sip. The thought that Justin had drank from the same
bottle came into his head, suddenly. He pushed it away harshly. He
may have only been sixteen, but he wasn't a damn teenybopper.
"Something wrong with the water?" Justin
asked, arching one eyebrow at Wade.
"No," Wade said quickly, taking another
drink to prove his words. "It's fine. Thanks a lot." He passed the
bottle back to Justin, brushing his fingers against the other man as
he did so. It did not escape his notice that this slight touch made
ever hair on his body stand on end.
"Sure, no problem," Justin said, tossing the
water bottle in his bag and zipping it up.
"Justin! You coming?" Chris called to him,
and Justin turned around.
"Yeah, just give me a sec. I'll meet you
downstairs." Justin flung his bag over his shoulder and looked at
Wade. "It was nice working with you." Wade watched him until he
disappeared backstage.
Wade was amazed. He had never seen so many
celebrities in one room. It was a little intimidating. When he had
done concerts with Britney, it had been different. Those had just
been fans, kids and their parents there for a good time. These were
people that he had watched on television and heard on the radio,
which was something entirely different. Nerves started to build up
in his stomach.
"Are you ok kid?" Justin asked him. Wade
looked sideways at him. If it was anyone else he would have said, in
his most biting voice 'I'm not a kid.' Then he would have pointed
out the hypocrisy of a man only two years his senior calling him
'kid'. But it wasn't anyone else. It was Justin. And Wade was fast
discovering that things were very different where Justin was
concerned.
"Y-yeah," Wade stammered, and then he wanted
to smack himself.
"It's a little overwhelming, isn't it?"
Justin asked with a chuckle. "I remember the first time I was in a
room with more celebrities than I could count. I almost pissed in my
pants." Wade could only nod, not knowing what to say. "You'll do
fine, man. Good luck."
"Thanks," Wade said softly. "You too."
Justin smiled that smile again, and Wade couldn't help but smile
back.
"Guys!" Britney called. "Come on, it's
time." Wade took a deep, shaky breath.
"Well," Justin said, putting a hand on
Wade's back, causing warmth to spread through his entire body.
"We're on."
"I cannot believe it," Wade moaned as they
came off the stage. "I cannot fucking believe that I did that!" He
kicked the wall, burying his head in his hands. "Stupid, clumsy..."
"Hey, kid, you okay?" Justin asked,
approaching Wade.
Wade shook his head, dejected. "Didn't you
see?"
"See what? You fall? Yeah, man, but it
happens to everyone. And besides, you had the fastest reaction I've
ever seen from someone who fell."
Wade sighed. "Yeah, OK. Maybe."
"When we were in Germany, we had this big
concert that we were doing. Darren gave us a dance move where we put
our hand down on stage and jump up, letting that hand support us.
Well, I was doing that move, and I over did it, and my hand buckled,
I fell down flat on my face, and ended up with a broken thumb."
Wade winced, then smiled slightly. "Ok.
That's probably worse than my fall, isn't it?"
Justin laughed slightly. "Yeah, probably.
And besides, you were in the back. And you got up so fast."
"Well, at least I'm fast."
"And if it helps, you were the best dancer
out there. You were even better than Britney, but I didn't say
that," Justin said with a grin.
"Thanks man," Wade said, as his smile
widened. "Thanks for making me feel better. Like less of a moron."
"It's no problem, man. I crack sometimes,
when I'm singing. That's almost as bad. Everyone messes up. Besides,
like I said, you really rocked out there."
"Thanks for making me feel better," Wade
said, as his smile widened. "Like less of a moron."
"It's no problem, man. I crack sometimes,
when I'm singing. That's almost as bad. Everyone messes up. Besides,
like I said, you really rocked out there."
"Thank you again," Wade said, touched by
Justin's efforts to make him feel better. No one else had made any
effort, not even Britney, and he had not expected it from someone he
barely knew.
Justin smiled. "No problem." He knew how it
felt, to want so badly to impress everyone, and then mess up. But he
honestly didn't think Wade had anything to worry about. Even the way
Wade fell had been graceful, just like every move the young dancer
seemed to make.
"Justin!" Britney exclaimed, wrapping her
arms around his waist. "You guys were great!"
Justin pulled out of her embrace, turning to
give her a quick, friendly peck on the cheek. "Thanks, Brit. You
were great too."
Wade noticed a slightly disappointed look
cross Britney's face, but it was gone as soon as he saw it, so he
dismissed it.
"Well, are you coming to the party?" Britney
said.
Justin nodded, and then turned to Wade. "You
gonna come?"
"Oh," Wade said, "I don't know. I hadn't
really planned on it."
"Come," Justin said. "It'll be fun."
For some reason that was all the
encouragement that Wade needed. "OK," he said, smiling. "I'll see
you there."
Justin grinned. "Great, man. See you there."
Wade nodded. "Cool. I'm gonna go get
changed."
Justin nodded. "All right man, see you
there." He nodded to Britney and they walked off together.
The lights of the club seemed to be flashing
in all directions. And it was relatively dark, so Wade was having a
harder time then he thought he would finding Justin.
He kept replaying the conversation backstage
earlier that day in his head. Justin had been so nice, like he
actually cared. Could he... no. 'Don't even get your hopes up,' Wade
thought to himself. After another minute or so, Wade went to the
bar, sitting down, asking for a glass of water. He felt a hand on
his shoulder, and turned, hoping to meet blue eyes, but was instead
greeted by green ones. "Hey," Lance said. "Great show, huh?"
"Yeah," Wade said. "It was. You guys were
awesome."
"Thanks," Lance said. "You've got a lot of
talent, man. I was talking to Britney, and she said that you were
the best choreographer she'd ever worked with."
Wade blushed. "I'm sure she says that about
everyone she works with."
Lance shook his head. "No man, she's
serious. She thinks you could do great things with your life. Plus
you have to be good, because I heard Justin talking about you to
Chris, and Justin doesn't talk about someone unless he's impressed
with them."
Wade tried to fight down the flare of
excitement the surged through him. "Justin talked about me?"
Lance nodded. "Yeah, he said something like,
'Man, that kid with the pink hair can sure dance.'"
Wade's excitement died down a little bit
when he heard that. Kid with the pink hair? Had Justin not even
remembered his name?
Lance must have noticed the disappointed
look that suddenly came over Wade's face. It confused him, but he
felt bad, wondering if he had said something wrong. "Well," he
continued, "Brit also said that you were cool to work with, so we
should keep you in mind for future projects."
Wade brightened up a little bit. "Hey,
thanks man, I appreciate that."
Lance gave him a smile and said, "No
problem. If you're half as good as I've been hearing you are, I bet
you could do great things for us." Lance thought that he seemed to
be feeling better and he said, "Well, it's been great talking to
you. I hope I see you around."
Yeah, you too," Wade said, waving slightly
as Lance walked away. As he watched, Lance came up beside JC,
slipping a friendly arm around the other man, as he handed him a
drink. Wade smiled to himself. There was something between those
two. Maybe no one else could see it, but he could.
Wade looked around the club, seeing if he
could spot someone he knew. 'Who am I kidding?' Wade thought to
himself. 'I'm looking for Justin and I know it.' After looking
around for about ten minutes and coming up empty handed, Wade
started to look around for the bathroom, He saw an entrance going
into what looked like a hallway and Wade thought that maybe that's
where the bathrooms were. He walked over and went down the narrow
hallway, stopping when thought he caught the sound of voices.
"I hate this so much," a familiar female
voice said.
"I'm sorry, Brit, but this is how it has to
be," answered a voice that Wade was beginning to know as well as his
own. Justin.
"I just hate the hiding, hate the lies,"
Britney said. "You pulling away from me." Now her voice held an
accusing tone. "I don't understand why we have to keep it a secret,"
she finished, and Wade barely made out the sound of Justin's sigh.
"We don't want attention from the media.
Both of us are just getting our careers off the ground; we don't
need all the attention on us instead of our music. It won't be
forever, Brit."
"And what about the pulling away from me?"
"Well, I'm sorry Brit. I didn't want to hurt
you, but you're kind of obvious. How can we keep it quiet if you're
hugging me in front of everyone?"
Britney sighed, and Wade ventured further
into the hall, careful not to make any noise. "I love you, Justin,"
she said. "I want everyone to know it."
"Someday they will, Brit," Justin said. Wade
bit his lip, all of his hopes crashing down around him, as Justin
bent down and kissed Britney deeply. Wade squeezed his eyes closed,
trying to block out the sight.
Feeling the need for a bathroom for a completely different
reason, Wade made his way out of the hallway and back out into the
club, where he could lose himself in the large crowd of people and
forget that he had ever seen his hopes smashed to
pieces.